Protecting Your Dreams From Dream Killers – By Patrick J. D’Arcy

The Question Asked Of Every Young Person: “What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?”

Throughout your life, the dream killers show up, toss piss on your goals and aspirations, and leave you in shambles. They are friends, family members, enemies, and fools. This is your life, not theirs. And it must remain yours. I want to help you deal with the dream killers, and encourage you to pursue your dreams.

“What do you want to do with your life?” This is a very hard question for most people, especially when asked of someone in high school. For some, the answer is a clear and direct path: law, medicine, welder, artist. For the vast majority, it remains somewhat of a mystery. This is normal. Worse, when the high school student now enrolls in college, he is pressured to select a “major” before the student really can figure out their interests. The classes themselves – even if the student has an interest in the subject – can kill off interest. Even for those that see a direct path, the dream can be derailed when they stumble with bad grades, personal tragedies, lost-interest or other reasons. I am here to give you real-world advice – the dreams you had as a child and when growing up reflect your true interests. The problem is that you are programmed at an early age to think that your dreams are only dreams. This may be my most important blog post: the protection of your dreams, and living your life according to your terms. You take medicine to protect yourself from illness. You must take the hard medicine of tuning out dream killers and saboteurs, of ignoring them, and dealing with the pressure that comes from choosing your path, and not that of everyone else.

The Dream Killers- They Are Your Friends, Families And Enemies. They Convince You To Go In The Wrong Direction.

In Will Smith’s movie, The Pursuit of Happyness, he realizes that what he just said to his young son is the stuff of dream killers, recognizes his error, and offers this incredibly important advice (note, the following videos are under the Fair Use exception to copyright law, as its use is non-commercial in its purpose, for educational and comment purposes by me to illustrate the point being made, only a small portion is used in support of the education and comment purposes, and other factors):

Will Smith’s advice is dead on: he tells his son to protect his dreams, and to not let family members (including his own father) talk him out of it. To his credit, Will Smith realizes quickly that his advice to his son is wrong. This movie was very inspiring to me. You see his young son talking about what he likes to do, and there it is – the dream killer – telling you it is a waste of time and not productive. Hearing this from your dad can be very powerful in stealing your dreams. The comments in the Youtube video discuss how people listened to the dream killers and naysayers, and are now full of regret.

In Legally Blonde, Reese Witherspoon wants to go to Harvard Law School to get back her fiancée that dumped her. Watch how the counselor at “CULA” (a funny swipe at UCLA), tries to talk her out of it as unrealistic. The “advisor’s” knowledge of entrance requirements to Harvard is dead-on, and the truth about the difficultly in gaining admission is also correct. These powerful forces – authority figure and the difficulty of the challenge – push dreams aside, and destroy the dream in the process. Reese isn’t having it. First, her parents try to talk her out of it (1:16 mark), and then the counselor (at 1:45). “Harvard won’t be impressed….” Yes, they were. Reese didn’t get an amazing LSAT score of 175 (about top 1%), but a near perfect 179. Even in law school, she was treated as “dumb” (despite being highly intelligent). From these struggles, she found herself, realized she didn’t need her dumb and useless fiancée, and continued to surprise herself about the true depths of her talents. The discussion with her parents and counselor to discuss her new career path only took about 60 seconds, but those 60 seconds could have drastically pushed her life into a wrong direction. You must be on guard against this!

Beware Of The Dream Killers – They Are Everywhere

The point of this section is simple: many persons in positions of authority (as well as enemies and rivals) will ask about what you want to do with your life, only to find a way to squash the dream or put doubt into your head so that you never do it. Some do it deliberately (the narcissists and backstabbers), some due it innocently (they are just uniformed), and some are giving you real advice from a road already taken. Never accept the “reality” these people foist upon you. It is your life. You decide, and only after you really know the facts. Do not be afraid to stake your claim. If it is unconventional, the criticism is certain. Don’t let the criticism stop you.

When I was in law school, there was this great student. He came to class early, took notes, studied, and was loving the experience. He was also married, and about 40 years old. I noticed he lost a lot of weight, and looked stressed out. I talked to him, only to find that his wife was threatening a divorce if he didn’t quit law school. At first, she didn’t like living on a bare-bones budget when he quit his job. So, he got hired back, and now is working full-time and going to law school. The stress of doing the impossible was killing him. Then, while this stay-at-home wife was complaining, she further expressed her dismay that he wasn’t paying enough attention to her. It didn’t matter to her that he had long stretches of time off between semesters and school breaks. It didn’t matter that this was only for six semesters. It didn’t matter that he was looking at a $125K starting salary (in 2006) upon graduation, and the $2,000 per week summer associate gig coming up the next year. By dropping out like he did, he didn’t even finish the first year, so all of that time was wasted, to say nothing about the costs of a legal education. Worse, he was now back doing a job he wanted to escape from. Chances are she probably still divorced him. This is the dream killer in action.

The Dream Killers – And How To Spot Them

The Person Who Says, “You Can’t Do That” Or “You’re Not Good Enough.”

People who tell you that “You can’t do that,” or “What you really should be doing,” are dream killers. What they say will be backed by some intuitive logic: “Why, only a few people make it in singing.” “You really shouldn’t focus on art, as there are so many starving artists out there.” ” A fashion designer? Do you know how hard it is to break into that field, and it’s already flooded.” When you say you want to be an astronaut, they reply, “Only a select few make it that far, and what if you don’t get accepted? You would have wasted years of your life?” These people leave you discouraged, but only if you listen to them. While it is true that only a tiny fraction of people make it to astronaut, so what? If this is what you want to do with your life, then make it happen. If you are passionate about achieving your goals (which includes putting in the work), then you’ll get there.

Dream Killers Find Ways To Justify Not Attaining Your Dreams. They Tell You “What About Your Family Responsibilities,” Or “You Are Too Old To Start Over,” Or “How Are You Going To Survive While You Are Back In School?”

You are in a job you do not like, over 30, never finished college, and decide you want to become a lawyer. You reached this decision from being in the working world and seeing what lawyers do, and realize this is the career for you. You are now working on making the dream happen: you enroll in college, change your work hours and now live on a greatly reduced income while competing against students younger than you who do not have to spend time working. All of your effort is now focused on getting high grades and blowing away the LSAT. The dream killers come out in full force to find “justifications” for keeping you exactly where you are. They’ll tell you that you are “too old” to go back to school, that “you’ll be 36 by the time you finish,” or “What about your family? How are you going to survive while you are back in school piling up student loan debt?” Others will say you are being “selfish,” “irresponsible,” or worse, “a professional student.” I remember a lawyer told me that in a lunch room at the insurance company where I worked. He always saw me studying on my lunch break, and asked me, “What are you studying now?” I told him “Econometrics.” I was in the MBA program. “What are you going to do with an MBA? You sound like a professional student.” Because he was a lawyer, and had a high role at the company, his words really stung, especially when he said it in full view of the other employees. In his mind, why waste my time studying to get an MBA, when my job doesn’t require it? That’s precisely the point that this dickhead didn’t get: I was looking to change careers, and an MBA was a good credential to add to my skillset. About a year after graduating, I helped form a joint venture, and the MBA was well-received by the executives in choosing me. Not only did I know the title insurance end of things, but now I had a managerial degree. The MBA transformed my career into a slew of high-level executive positions where I formed several multi-million dollar companies. The snap analysis by this dream killing asshole sounded “correct,” but this “logic” is only superficial. The lawyer was a dream killer.

People told me that “Who goes to law school at age 41? You won’t be working for three years! You will accumulate a ton of student loans that you will be paying back in your 50’s.” I heard it all. Today, I run my own law firm, make my own money, and handled all of the challenges. Yes, not working for three years is a problem. We dealt with these problems, knowing they are only temporary and solvable.

You Could Be Your Own Dream Killer – Through Fear Of Change! Fear Is Good.

Realize that you could wind up sabotaging your own dreams through fear – the fear of taking the next step in your life; the fear of actually putting yourself out there on the line, and making shit happen; the fear of quitting your job; the fear that you could wind up being financially devastated if things turn out badly; the fear in your own abilities to be the CEO of YOU. To echo Gordon Gekko, fear, in all of its forms, is good. Fear of financial ruin. Fear of failure. Fear of rejection. Fear of watching your life pass you by. This fear triggers warning signs in your mind, makes you alert, and guides you to take action. It is only when you are immobilized by fear that you have lost. All heavyweight boxers talk about their fear when they enter the ring. Same with soldiers about to go into combat. The difference is that they don’t let fear stop them. As you confront your fears, you notice you are making concrete progress and feeling alive. Doors are slowly opening, new pathways are getting connected, and a new future is unfolding.

The Case Of Susan Boyle – Dream Killing In Action, And Her Courage To Make It Happen Before Her Dream Was Gone

When Susan Boyle walked on to the stage of Britain’s Got Talent, she was laughed and scoffed at. Now, maybe due to nervousness (which is completely understandable), she didn’t choose her words or actions better. Fittingly, she sung the song, I Dreamed A Dream, the lyrics which absolutely fit the situation, and tells the story of a person watching their life turn to living hell, with no escape, and how dreams during a young person’s life are there for the taking, but not as you get older. She couldn’t have picked a finer song, as it mirrored her life. (Again a Fair Use exception to copyright law is invoked here, as with all videos, I don’t own the rights to them, and not making money off of it, and my commentary is for teaching and education). She made Simon gasp, Piers was rocked, etc. She mentioned show she wanted to sing with Elaine Page (which happened, as they did a duet together). What we love about Susan’s story is her triumph over dream killers who tried to kill her dreams (again) on national television. The audience’s reaction when she says “I am 47” at 1:08. After exhaling, Simon asked the right question “What’s the dream,” to which she replied, “I am trying to become a professional singer” at 1:19, including smirking and laughter by the audience. Pier’s laughter at 1:38 before she starts. Simon’s expression of “What a waste of time” at 1:50. Now, look at Susan’s fierce “all business” expression at 1:42. Her eyes narrow, and she is now going to make shit happen. She’s felt the ridicule and ostracizing for her entire 47 years, but she’s got talent, and damn it, she’s thinking, this is my time now. Fuck the critics. I can do this. At 1:47 before she starts, she briefly smiles at Simon, as her eyes are pointed to the far right where he sits. She knows his vote is what really matters. At 2:22 when Simon lets out a big smile, I see Susan relaxing, and she is now focusing on the song and the notes. What a performance! Way to go! In fairness to Piers, look at his face at 2:41, he knows beautiful singing, and loves this song the way she is singing it. He’s convinced, and is enjoying the performance. Simon’s facial reaction at 4:01 is of complete shock, and the realization that he hit the lottery with this one. This is fucking talent, and it just walked on the stage and nobody gave he any credit. Incredibly, she didn’t know whether or not she succeeded until the final votes were tallied. I take this to show the depth of her depression and deeply entrenched feelings of inferiority and shame from dream killers and cruel people that tormented Susan her entire life.

Don’t Pick Careers Solely Due To Pension Benefits. It’s Easy To Make More Money In A Different Way.

Dream killers tell you to take jobs you don’t like simply due to the retirement benefits. This is an egregious mistake. Get to know about present value and future value of money calculations. For instance, if you expect to make a 5 percent annual return, how much money do you need to put into an account so that it grows to $1 one year from now? PV = $1/(1 + i)n “i” is the interest rate expressed in percentage terms. 5% interest is 0.05. “n” is the number of periods (1 year). So, the PV of $1 today is: $1/(1.05)1 or 95 cents. The FV is $1. What this means is 95 cents today is the same as getting $1 one year from now at 5% interest. Similarly, $1 today (the PV) is equivalent to taking $1.05 one year from now (the FV). This simplified analysis is to make something very clear: you don’t need to rely on a pension to fund your retirement, since the pension is taken from your pay anyway. It’s not free money. You paid into it through a job you hated. You could put that money into your own retirement account and fund your own damn pension through a solo 401(k), and IRA or Roth IRA.

When a person who has worked a government job for 30 years and walks away with a $120K per year pension (and decent pay along the way), there are still “costs” to this decision. One giant problem is if he detested his work, so in that sense, he did “bad.” Also, if the average male in the US dies at 75, and he can’t collect until the age of 67, then he is looking at only eight years of $120K per year. And again, he paid into this pension his entire working life.

Suppose you want a $2 million retirement nest egg at age 70 to retire on. How much do you need to invest to get there, assuming you start your career at 25? Well, we are talking 45 years of contributions, (so that’s the “n”), we’ll assume an annual rate of return of 5% over the entire 45 years (that’s the “i”), and the FV (the final amount) needed is $2 million. Look at financial calculators on the internet to plan your retirement. You don’t need a government pension (like any generality, there are notable exceptions, such as lavish and outrageous pensions for our top government officials).

Here, we are making payments of the same amount, and want to how much we’ll have after 45 years of making those payments at 5% annual interest. Under this scenario, you are putting $12K per year into your IRA in a lump sum to fund your retirement. It’s a handy way of knowing how much money you’ll have at a certain retirement age. This is the FV of an annuity: FV annuity = $12,000 x [((1 +(0.05)45-1)/(0.05). The amount grew to $1,916,402! What I am saying is that if you were disciplined, and put $12K per year away for your retirement, you’d have about $1.9M by the time you are 70. And, you can give that money to your heirs. Under a state pension, you might not get anything after you die. Never take a job solely for its pension. There are exceptions, of course. I can’t cover everything here.

You Better Like What You Do, Because You Will Doing It Every Day For Decades.

Whatever career you choose, consider how many hours per day you work in a typical work-week, that you will be doing this type of work each day, and then think about how that work physically and emotionally affects you. Do you like this work? Do you hate it? Are you bored and have lost interest? Is the work “doable,” but the pay sucks? Is the work difficult but the pay is great? Is the work high-stress, but allows you to buy whatever you want? What kinds of things matter to you? Are you the type to want to live in a nice house, drive an expensive car, or own a large yacht? Are you happy living in a modest home, driving a Prius, and perfectly fine with a salaried job with good benefits? Think about your tastes and reactions, because this affects how you view your job. Only you can answer these questions. Your career path must also be in alignment with your personal standards of consumption. People who like nice things often get frustrated by their pay. In that case, search out the careers that pay very well, or open your own business.

Doing what you like to do has immense advantages: by enjoying your work, you will do great work. Work, in and of itself, does not alienate you like work you can’t stand to do. The key is to find what you like to do, then make a living at it. Liking what you do also means doing great work on a consistent basis, and that leads to career success and fulfilment. This leads to my next point, the rationalization of time.

Beware Of Time Rationalization – It Keeps You Trapped Where You Are

The relativity of time is a powerful way to keep you stuck where you are. When I was 27, I felt “old” compared to when I was 18. Today, 27 seems like being a kid. 40 feels “old” compared to 30, etc. Where you currently stand will seem “old” from where you were previously. This mindset can trap you from making new changes in your life.

You will confront this thinking when you consider going back to college, like when I went to law school at age 41: “You are too old to go to college. You will be 44 when you graduate.” The naysayers and dream killers who helped fuck up your present situation will come out of the woodwork to offer you even more of their fucked-up advice. My response: I will be 44 even if I don’t go to law school. I will have at least 25 more years of work ahead of me, doing what I want. I am doing this for me before I run out of time. As far as being among the oldest students, so what? Does that matter after I graduate? No.

I wanted to become a real estate lawyer. I also knew that time was running out to make the move to a three year full-time study. How much longer do I wait? Until I am 50? Is there really ever a good time to go? I pulled the switch and went to law school. The dream killers found all types of “justification” for telling me I was “irresponsible,” that I was “chasing a foolish dream,” that “nobody will hire you as a summer associate given your age” (untrue), that “there are too many lawyers,” etc. I did not let these things derail my dreams. I worked around the problems as they presented themselves. The not-so-funny thing is this: the dream killers and naysayers who tried to talk me out of going to law school hit me up for advice after I graduated, and what they said makes no difference to me now. They also went quiet once I made the decision. Your life is not your life until you are in charge.

Transitioning To Your New Career Means Short-Term Financial Hardship But Long-Term Gain

Any career transition means losing most of your current income, and possibly starting over. This also keeps people trapped. Very quickly, you can rationalize that you cannot live on a reduced income. Yes you can. These realities are powerful, and you must deal with it. You can make the necessary changes. What you think are “required” items in your life can be eliminated, downsized or sold. Move into a cheaper apartment; sell you car and pay cash for a “clunker.” Sell your home, or refinance the debt to a cheaper “interest-only” loan to cut your monthly bills even more. Eliminate your credit card debts and long-term debts before making this change.

Starting Over – Do Not Look Back, No Matter How Tempting It Is.

Along this journey of realizing your dreams, the urge to “go back” to the old job or way of life will be strong. We get so trapped in what is known and comfortable that we are tempted to go back to what we tried to escape from. For instance, you’ll notice guys who are security guards looking to start a new career, only to go back to being a security guard. I see this with waitressing too. The waitress has tremendous people skills, can work under pressure, etc. She could just as easily take a job in customer service, and then build from there. Instead of seeing herself as a “waitress,” she needs to assess that she has learned many different skills that translate over into new career paths. During the transition, you are making financial sacrifices all the time. Dining out is impossible. You might abolish cable tv, cut your phone plan to the bare minimum. All of this passes in time. Economic realities make the leap back to the old lifestyle quite easy. Don’t do it. Do NOT look back. Something deep inside you made you take stock of your life. Your inner voice told you that the old path was the wrong one. The old path might be paying more (now), but that will change over time. You didn’t start out making that kind of money, and your new career needs time to re-boot as well. Enjoy the fear that comes with change, and enjoy the fear of failure as you embark on this journey. Going back to what you tried to escape from means you have surrendered your dreams. On your death bed, or at a moment far into your life, the things you will remember with regret and sorrow are those things you failed to do, not the things you did. I can also tell you that after your well publicized escape from the current career, any return back to it conjures up images of some type of failure in your new venture. The “failure” is more likely from not allowing the new career to develop and being too impatient with the rate of change in your new life. Get comfortable with the uncertainty and high amount of change in your life, as you see yourself finally freeing yourself from the influence of others, and moving in the direction you know is right for you.

The “Risk Adverse” Strategy Of Staying In Your Current Job Is Actually High Risk

While exceptions always exist, in general, the “tried and true” or “risk adverse” strategy of not changing careers is actually a high risk strategy. By not changing careers, you kill off the adventure the new career brings to the table. You kill off the new happiness that the new career offered. You will never know how that script played out, and whether the new career meant higher pay, a better life and a legacy to pass to your kids. These are the risks from refusing to change. Only sea anemones refuse to change. Humans, by definition, respond to change. The harder you work out your body, the stronger it becomes. Studies show that certain types of learning makes you smarter. Watch how prison inmates become transformed from illiterate, to debating Shakespeare. The talents within you are immense. The change in career is supposed to speak to these talents. Chances are very high that if you are talented in something, then you also enjoy it too. We like to do what we are good at. What are you good at? That could answer the question, “What do you want to do with your life?”

Embrace Fear And Embrace Failure

To become successful, you need to embrace fear and failure. When a person “fails,” as I use the term here, it is not a failure in the traditional sense. In school, an “F” grade means you “failed,” and is mark of shame. The teacher or professor is saying, “Hey, you blew it.” Failure in the business world has different meanings. You can blow it in the business world by missing a deadline. That is like getting an “F” in school. These “F’s” are to be avoided. Then, there is the other kind of failure – a failure that comes with acquired knowledge and experience. This is the failure to cherish and embrace. This is where wisdom is acquired. The wise persons are those who repeatedly failed, didn’t give up, and learned from it. These failures increased their knowledge levels.

To be successful, you must accept that failure and errors happen, and learn from it. If you are not making any mistakes, then you are not learning, and not pushing your boundaries.

You Are The Product Of Your Acquired Learning

When you start your career, you are the product of what you have learned. The depth of your learning becomes evident when you are thrown into new waters. Do you sink? Do you swim? Can you deal with pressure, are you resourceful, do you have initiative to get things done? When you find yourself sinking, then you must start swimming! A dog knows to dog paddle even when it has never been in the water before. Your instincts are the results of hundreds of millions of years of evolution. Part of getting to this new path is new thinking. Erase doubts of fear and failure, and think in terms of solutions and goals. The “fear” from change and new situations is like iron being forged from a hot flame. If you have gotten to this point, then you know it is time to make that change. I opened my own law firm over a decade ago, and it was the right decision for me. I broke all of the “rules” in the process. I wasn’t going to be defined this time by the “theys” and their dream killing bullshit. Was it easy? No. Is it easy? No. And I would not trade it for anything. I am now 18 years after my fateful decision to go to law school, and it was the best decision I ever made. I wasn’t “too old” to go to law school, I landed a terrific job at a large firm, and finally got to become a real estate attorney. Looking back, I have no regrets. I wish you all the best and hope you realize your dreams. There are always reasons why you can’t do something. Now, go make it happen.

The Special Litigation Tactics Needed When Combating The Narcissist – By Patrick J. D’Arcy, Irvine, CA Attorney

A narcissist presents a special challenge to trial lawyers. The direct answer to this topic is as follows: the narcissist thrives on conflict, drama and positive and negative energy. The harder you push on them, the more direct attacks you launch against them, the more they relish the fight. Because they have a personality disorder, your standard arsenal of litigation tactics do not work upon them. What does work is this: starve them out of all emotion and drama. Do not speak about the evils of their ways, the pain they have caused your clients, and the conflict that has disrupted your client’s life, etc. These statements give the narcissist his dose of supply (or “fuel”), which keeps them going. Instead, you must think and act differently – remove all of the drama from your pleadings, your questions and your litigation tactics. Be robotic in dealing with them. Be indifferent. Ridicule their accomplishments. Ignore them. These approaches pay rich dividends. The narcissist has no answer for this. Starving them of this “fuel” causes immediate problems, as they feed off of your energy to sustain themselves. They are emotional vampires, which is why you feel drained dealing with them. Cutting off this “fuel” causes them to explode, and ignites their rage and fury. They wind up expending their own precious fuel while receiving little to none in return. The narcissist cannot function in this manner. Fighting them head-on is like smashing up against iron gates. Weaken the support for the gates by softening up the soil, cracking the cement holding the support posts, and then watch the strong gate collapse under its weight.

Narcissists all have the same general traits and behaviors. Since they know they are evil to the core, and are always looking to screw you over, to get revenge or to just control your life, you cannot believe anything they say, nor can you believe any of their fake apologies. Let’s first describe these devils before discussing how to deal with them.

Narcissism is a personality disorder. The “narc” is very much ashamed of themselves. They are emotional toddlers. Perhaps they were toilet trained in an abusive manner, maybe daddy didn’t give them enough attention, or maybe mommy’s expectations were too high. Whatever the reason, the narc cuts off these feelings of shame and humiliation, and creates a “new” (and fake) person that they present to the world. This fake person is what you see, unless you happen to catch the narc in its primal state. When you do, or when the mask that they are wearing momentarily slips, you will see a face of true evil. The fake person is a walking contradiction. They demand loyalty from you but give none in return. They demand their freedom while trying to control you. They preach about the values of marriage, while secretly cheating on you.

Here are the warning signs you are dealing with a narc: 1) they have an absolute need for control; 2) they refuse to ever admit they are wrong; 3) they blame you for everything, including evils acts they do to you (e.g., when they slugged you, it was your fault for provoking them); 4) they will engage in a unrelenting smear campaign to destroy your name and reputation; 5) they seek revenge, regardless of how many years have passed; 6) you cannot freely speak your mind around them, as they have hair-triggered personalities; 7) they can fly into a wild rage at a moment’s notice; 8) they are compulsive liars; 9) they suffer from addictions; 10) interactions with them leave you emotionally drained; 11) they think they are smarter than you; 12) they think very highly of themselves (and many are quite accomplished); 13) they lack any empathy or feelings of remorse; and 14) they cannot compromise, as everything must be on their terms.

The “narc” uses you to fulfill its needs and desires. You are not a person, but a “thing” to be owned and possessed. What the narc needs for its survival is emotional fuel, or “supply” from you. Cut that off, and the narc quickly discards you, and then embarks on a vicious smear campaign. Narcissists are pathological liars, have high opinions of themselves, and span the gamut from dumb to intelligent, from an incompetent to very capable, and from unemployed loser to a captain of industry.

Narcissists don’t see you as a co-equal human.

They do not care about you, even when they lie and claim they’ll change. The narc has limited emotions: fear, jealously, greed, envy and idolization. Since you are not a person to the narc, but a “thing,” you are like a brand new stove that was just installed in your kitchen. Like with anything new, the narc expresses great joy over this shiny new possession. Over time, that new awesome stove becomes (in the narc’s eyes) an old burner, to something that produces small amounts of fuel, but only in rare instances. The narc’s perception and treatment of you steadily declines until the narc wants to get rid of you. Or, think of this “relationship” as the strong oxen that plows the field, does what it is told, becomes weary and abused from the constant strain of heavy work of tending to the narc’s needs and wants, to being disfavored in old age as it can’t keep up any more, and then used as leather and food for the owner. The narc doesn’t have a “relationship” with you (even if married to one, or a “best friend” with one). The narc simply uses you through manipulation, deceit and threats to get that precious emotional fuel. Narcs seek reactions from you. Cut off the reaction, and the narc dissolves like the Wicked Witch of The West did. Remember, to the narc, you are a thing, not a person.

Your “relationship” with the narc is like the poor oxen. The owner makes sure their basic needs are met. You are clean, housed, properly fed, and given medical attention. Beyond that, you are muzzled, and forced to do work for the narc (where the narc sets the terms and conditions, and really doesn’t give a shit about how you feel about it). When these oxen get too old to do this backbreaking work, the narc still finds a way to have his needs met: he will butcher them, keep their hides, and turn them into a delicious meal.

What Is A Narcissist?

Today’s need for instant “likes” and “shares” promotes narcissism on a grand scale. You take a photo from Switzerland, as you vacation in the Swiss Alps, and then post it on Facebook. (By the way, the “friends” on Facebook can tell a burglar to go hit your house while you are away). While I appreciate some selfies, especially if it to capture a really great moment, it has gone overboard. That “duck lips” or “trout pout” face bothers me – a lot. People are taking selfies at funerals to show off their new outfits, taking selfies while driving, and post to social media for the “high” from many “likes.” Here’s a few of the stupid selfies that encourage narcissism. Doing these things doesn’t make you a narcissist, but it encourages it.

Narcissists are wounded assholes who create nothing but drama and conflict in your life, as well as lie, cheat and steal. They have no empathy, and present special problems in the courtroom. Because they will lie on command, and have no fear of lying (and will be very convinced of their own lies), they must be dealt with differently. A narcissist will never “settle” in a lawsuit. They must destroy you. The longest and most draining lawsuits involve narcs.

Narcs all come from the same playbook: they are the ones who never admit that they are wrong, always find reasons to blame you for things, have no moral conscience, will quickly unload on you with all of their problems, pretend to know everything, have a need to control people, to intimidate them and then destroy reputations, while maintaining this carefully guarded and fake image of themselves. You will find that the narcissist will react strongly to any criticism, and will take great delight in destroying your name and reputation when the time suits them.

Narcs are the product of a wrecked childhood, caused by parental neglect, continued bullying or other emotional trauma that makes them horribly insecure, and deeply ashamed. Because this wounded moron cannot accept that they are a loser and a pile of crap as a human being, they seek out prey to fill their egos, needs and desires. They are predators. To avoid this “true” person (their real self), the narc represses these emotions. In its place is a “fake” persona that the narc creates and shows to the world. The narc is the person that only got a C grade on an exam, yet forges the “77” into a “97” and then lets others see the score to impress them. The narc goes to extreme lengths to protect this fake self image. You will see it on their social media – pictures of them at church, a charity for the homeless, or working at an animal rescue. These things are part of the false self the want you to see. They will be polite to you when you first meet them, engaging, charismatic, etc. This is all to throw you off so that you do not do the one thing that terrifies the narc – EXPOSING THEM. Anyone who attempts to expose the narc, and bring them face-to-face with their “true” self, will see a massive eruption of anger and violence. The narc cannot face themselves, and they literally self-destruct. Getting them to see their “true” self is all about inflicting narcissistic injury.

A narc cannot manage their own emotions, so they use you to feed their need for “fuel” (or “narcissistic supply”). Consider what is meant by “fuel” (and I give full credit to this term to H. G. Tudor, and his amazing videos on Youtube). I learned a great deal about narcs from H. G. Tudor, a self-admitted narcissist who explains what you must do to avoid getting entangled with narcissists. What H. G. Tudor said was true, and counter-intuitive to my approach as a trial lawyer. I am always confronting people with their lies. I live for the lie (as all trial lawyers do). The narc is a compulsive liar, but they think they are smarter than you, and that you will believe their lies. The truly “gifted” narcs blend lies with the truth, to make for a fascinating BS story. What H. G. Tudor said turned out to be very true: the narc lives for the drama, including the escalating conflict in the courtroom, and the high stakes emotion from cross-examination causes them to draw “fuel” from the interaction. You are playing their stupid game. Instead, you must starve them of any emotional reaction, and thus starve them from any “fuel.” The point of H. D. Tudor is that the drama from direct confrontation backfires when used against the narcissist. You must remove all drama and charged energy, since the narc feeds off of it.

You cannot reason with a narc, nor can you stay in their good graces. To “win” against the narc, you must simply cut all ties to them. Narcs, if left unchecked, will guilt you into doing their work for them, will emotionally manipulate you, will scream and cry about how they need you, and put on any act to keep control over you. Narcs eventually try to ruin anyone that has crossed their path. Like any parasite, the narc is very vocal if you try to claim your freedom and break free. While projecting confidence, the narc is a scared individual who cannot be alone, and needs the interaction with people held emotionally captive to feed their stupid instincts and desires.

Did You Unmask The Narcissist And Get “The Stare”?

A narc is a demon. I really believe they are possessed with dark energy and are completely evil. When you have unmasked them, when they realize that you know what they truly are, they reveal to you the stare of evil. Yeah, read up on it like I did. This stare is meant to intimidate you, to regain control, and, for the malignant narcs out there, could actually be eyes of black. You won’t forget it should you see this stare first-hand.

Narcs can be very dangerous persons, and can threaten to hurt or kill you. They will become enraged if you expose them for their true self, or if you have confronted them with who they really are. For that moment in time, the mask comes off, and you see the real demon. If you will be in physical danger, then do not provoke the narcissist. This is especially true if you live with a narc. I have watched first-hand (and read and heard the stories) of when the narc got exposed, and the violent reaction from them, including physical violence.

People discuss the other reptilian stare that narcissists have which resembles a snake about to strike, or an insect about to capture its prey. That “trance” or “reptilian” stare is them sizing you up and studying you. Like I said, these are sick people. In unmasking them, they now put you on their forever shit list.

The Narcissistic’s Demonic Phases – Recognize Them Early

Phase 1 Of The Narc Demon – “Love Bombing”

The “love-bombing” stage is when the narcissist tells you how great you are, how much they look up to you, how much you and they are alike, and how much you have in common with them. They bring you gifts, shower you with attention, and make it look like you have found your soul mate. This first phase is meant to suck you in. It’s all fake. During this phase, you think the narc is the greatest person ever. The narc is a demonic asshole. Never forget this. The narc demon does not experience emotion like we do. Instead, he manipulates, lies and bullshits his way into your life SO THAT YOU WILL SERVE HIS NEEDS. THINK OF THAT STOVE. THINK OF THOSE OXEN. Narcs are emotional vampires that suck your energy from you.

Phase 2 Of The Narc Demon – The Devaluation Phase

The second phase is the devaluation phase. This is where the narc starts finding fault with you, even when you are not at fault. They will blame you for shit you didn’t do, insinuate you lied (when you didn’t), and demand accountability from you (while flouting the same rules themselves). They no longer show that much interest in you, leaving you puzzled and confused. You will get the silent treatment. They get passive-aggressive for no reason. They disappear for spells at a time. You catch them in lies, and they lie about the lie. You are to blame for everything.

a) They Cut You Off From Friends And Family

During the devaluation, the narc works overtime to cause problems with your family. Your dad is “overbearing,” your mom “is nasty,” your brother is “too nosy.” At family gatherings, they pick fights, start arguments and cause trouble. After awhile, they start driving a wedge between you and your parents, trying to sever this critical link. The narc starts hitting on your friends, and then lies and says they hit on him. Over time, if successful, all that is left is you and the narc, and they use this isolation to further control you. This is why you NEVER let a narcissist EVER watch your children or family members.

b) They Gaslight You And Make You Believe You Are The Problem

In the movie Gaslight, the husband sets up a plan to get his wife to think she is crazy. This is where the phrase “gaslighting” comes from. Narcs gaslight nonstop. The narc husband tells her she left the car engine running. She says “No, I didn’t.” He then points to the car, and she sees the engine is running. Confused, she can’t understand how that happened. (It happened because the narc went out and started the car). Then, he’ll tell her the dentist appointment is at “10:00 a.m.,” and the next day, at 8:30, say, “The appointment is at 9:00 a.m., why aren’t you ready?” You respond, “You said it was at 10.” The narc says, “No, I told you the appointment with the vet was at 10, and you got them confused.” This is really how narcs think!

c) They Point Out Your Mistakes, Even When You Didn’t Make Them

During the devaulation phase, the narc starts pointing out your mistakes, or starts creating trouble over nothing. There is a “correct” way to eat steak, only “idiots” watch football, your friends are “morons,” you failed to cook the steak correctly, etc. The narc is deliberately creating negative energy in you because the positive fuel you once gave is now drying up.

d) The Silent Treatment

These demented assholes feed off of energy, both positive and negative. While they prefer positive energy from you – where you say how great they are – they’ll take negative energy too, as it is “supply” or “fuel” for their sick minds. The use of the silent treatment is meant to put you on edge. You’ll think, “What did I do wrong?” “What happened?” “What did I say?” The narc demon takes delight in your discomfort, and draws fuel from your hurt and confused look, and your emotional reaction. The narc loves giving you the silent treatment. They want you to feel upset, angry or anxious.

e) Passive Aggressive Behavior

In addition to the silent treatment, the narc gets off on being passive aggressive. They ask if you want coffee, only to give it to you cold. They offer to pick up your kids from school, only to tell the teacher you couldn’t pick up your kids because you felt hungover. The narc tells you about a “great job” at another company that they know is a shitty place to work with no advancement, just to derail your career and make your life a living hell. The narc only does things for you because it helps them, not you.

Phase 3 Of The Narc Demon – Discard

The narc eventually grows tired of you. The positive fuel you once emitted is gone, and the negative fuel doesn’t pack much punch. Your narc is now on to a new source of narcissistic supply, and is busy love-bombing your friend, while telling your friend what an awful person you were, while lying about things you never said about your friend. The discard phase happens when the narc has locked up new (and “better”) supply from somewhere else.

The Narc And Litigation

A direct frontal attack against a narc during cross-examination is usually a mistake, except where you can pin them down to “yes” or “no” answers. The narc doesn’t back down too much, and has an answer for everything. The narc is braced to fight back. They have outward supreme confidence. Taking the narc head-on and getting pissed off at them during cross-examination is a serious mistake. They are not wired correctly, so they “take” the positive fuel (compliments) and negative fuel/supply (anger) and drink it up. Normal people start to shut down after a constant barrage, but the narcissist continues with the fight. When the narc thinks they have the upper hand, or thinks you are “losing,” they smile and smirk at you. When you nail them, they will know it. In those moments, a blank stare comes across their face, followed by “I don’t remember” or “I don’t know” answers. Continue pressing. When given the “I don’t remember” answers, or the “I believe….” or “It’s my understanding….” tell them, “Great, you don’t recall. The reporter has recorded that as your answer under oath. At trial, you will not be allowed to now testify to this, since you don’t remember today, then you cannot now remember at trial!” The narc will once again get that look of bewilderment, meaning you are scoring hits.

Step 1: Remove All Emotion From Your Cross-Examination Questions

The narc feeds off emotional energy. Starve them of this energy, and you defeat the narc. Do not use emotional tactics or questions. Keep it neutral and robotic. Do not show anger, sorrow, hurt or surprise. The narc uses up energy through answering questions (as does any person), but will NOT get renewed energy from the fight, since no fight is being offered! It works magically.

Step 2: Inflict Narcissistic Injury!

Getting key admissions requires inflicting narcissistic injury, which is very easy! Narcissists are thin-skinned and highly sensitive to even the slightest criticism. They are paranoid, and on guard. Narcs get pissed off when you IGNORE them, when you INSULT them, when you QUESTION THEIR ACCOMPLISHMENTS, when you make them feel UNIMPORTANT and when you call out their bragging as IRRELEVANT. Like the emotional toddlers that they are, continued “hits” to their fake persona pushes them into full blown narcissistic RAGE. They act just like the four year old kicking and screaming on the supermarket floor when he can’t get candy.

One narc I battled (because I didn’t realize she was a narc) seemed to enjoy the barrage of questions I hurled her way. Her brother said, “You need to understand that she likes it when you get angry with her.” I then switched gears, and inflicted narcissistic injury, to test whether she as a narc. She was. The shift in the deposition was noticeable. She was now confused, and lost her confidence. Attacking her directly was a mistake.

Use Their “Intelligence” Against Them

Narcs will tell you that they are highly intelligent, and will often brag about being smarter than you. When you speak to a narc, they have a bemused face of “How dare you think you are on my level.” Use this smugness against them. Play into it. Go along with their premise that they are smarter than you. Allow them to think they can talk their way out of anything. Open up with softball questions to “confirm” what an idiot you are. Later, you pin them down on minute details. Keep track of those details, and then confront them when they forget their lies and get confused.

Examples Of Inflicting Narcissistic Injury

During the questioning, ask them about anything, then follow up with sarcasm. You could start with their academic achievements. “So, you graduated from UCLA?” Narc: “Yes, I graduated with a degree in Physical Education.” “Oh, so you chose one of the easy majors.” They won’t like that. Narcs, more than others, begin to ignite with such questions. “Did you get bad grades at UCLA, you know, C’s and D’s?” Narc: “Why is this relevant?” “Well, I’ll take your refusal to answer as a ‘Yes.'” “I will repeat the question……” Then ask again. Then ask if they were on academic probation, etc. Get them to brag about their work accomplishments, and then find reason to criticize it. “It shows here you were an office manager.” Narc: “Yes.” “And you were the office manager for several years, I see.” Narc: “Yes.” Now comes the injury: “Most jobs with the title of ‘office manager’ means that you worked alone in a one-person office. Is that what happened to you?” “So you weren’t invited to the concert?” Narc: “No.” (fuming) “These things happen to you regularly, correct?” Narc: “No!” “I am sorry, what is your name again?” You get the idea. These questions prevent the narcissist from gaining control over the deposition, and allow you to get the information you are looking for. Once you hit pay dirt with a narc, they get really pissed off, and start saying all kinds of things because nobody is allowed to mess with their fake image.

In defense of themselves, they will start spewing out all sorts of information. In the interim, they are getting angrier and angrier. Like a bomb with a short fuse, they suddenly explode.

Avoid The Narcissist’s Traps – They Love Playing The Victim.

The narc doesn’t believe in the truth. They are liars of the first division. They will refuse to answer your questions, while “projecting” your “bad behavior” back on to you. This is the weird quirk of a narcissist. They always play the victim. The narc turns the conversations back on to you, and something you have done, which is the basis for their blame. The narc could have been the one who left the keys in the ignition (probably on purpose), so that your car got stolen. You confront them: “I told you to never leave the keys in the ignition.” Narc: “Why are you yelling at me? Why are you so mean and cruel?” See the blame shift? The narc turns it around and questions your behavior toward them, while ignoring that they caused your car to be stolen. They never apologize, and instead lie about you, how you acted, etc. Narcs never accept responsibility, and think the rules don’t apply to them.

During cross-examination, the narc blames your client for everything that happened. They have rehearsed these lies many times, and even recruit people to back up their lies. You can use the victim blaming to draw out their “defenses” to what they did, which is useful, but do not allow them to control the questioning. The narc probably spent many hours perfecting their answers, looks and responses well before the deposition or hearing. They are practiced liars.

If you have made it this far, get out of any “relationship” with a narc. These toxic assholes leave you feeling emotionally drained, and demand everything from you while giving you nothing in return. Block them, and go no-contact. If contact is necessary, keep it in writing and at a bare minimum and without any emotional reactions.